It wasn't really all that mean, and she did not take it personally at all. It was just a little rub in her face, since I felt flaunting her pregnancy in front of me was rubbing it in my face.
Here's how it went down:
We gathered with friends. We're all sitting around a fire, having a great time, drinking beer, and chatting. Pregnant friend arrives and everyone gushes over her. Asking her how she's feeling, rubbing her belly. All the reasonable things people would do over a pregnant lady. And, I'm ok with all that, it hurt, a lot, but its life and I got through it (not really over it).
Well things settled down and we started roasting marshmallows. I wanted to make a smore and pregnant friend said she gave up chocolate for lent so she couldn't have one, just the marshmallow. She kindly toasted my marshmallow for me. I pulled it off and plopped it on my chocolate and graham cracker.
I looked at her and I said this chocolate tastes so good, then I took a swig of beer, and said the beer tasted good too. (I know she's been craving a beer). Boo Ya.
Just my little underhand way of making myself feel good. Pregnant friend has no idea of my struggles, and would be 100% supportive. In gatherings like that, its unavoidable, so I need to do what I need to do to make myself stay sane. Like I said, I got through it, its very, very hard to get over it.
On the topic of Lent, I decided this year that I wasn't giving up anything. I've felt in the past year, I've given up a lot. I've made personal sacrifises, and I've struggled. During this time, I'm not going to endure anymore hardship. I'm going to enjoy all that I have. I'm going to love my family, my dog, my job, my life more. I'm going to be thankful everyday for the things I've been given.
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