Today is harder than yesterday. It was harder to get up. Yesterday it felt like I only had to do it for one day. I think I convinced myself that it was a one day thing, which made today even worse.
Abby was awake when I dropped her off today. She was happy and smiling and I just wanted to play with her. She did great yesterday. She took her bottles well. She didn't cry or fuss. She napped. Its all a mother could ask for.
I think its hard on my because I tend to have frequent periods of downtime at work. During the times yesterday I couldn't but help to think about what I could be doing at home. I could be playing with Abby. I could be helping Gene. I could be running errands with Abby in the moby. I tried to distract myself with the Internet and counting down the hours. It helped go faster when I counted down to each pumping session.
Pumping every three hours gives me three times a day that I can relax and just focus on what I can do at work for Abby. I look through my phone pictures, watch some videos I made of her. Imagine we are snuggling in the chair.
Some say it gets easier over time, but I'm not sure it will. I think it will always be hard, I'll just have to adapt.
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